Thats right….a lot of people have said it….and I’m going to do it. For 3 years I have loved her unconditionally….I’ve put up with more than any boyfriend should have to….I’ve dealt with her parents…I’ve dealt with her liking other guys…all the while with me not even THINKING of being with anyone else…and I’m going to take some advice from a few friends today…like Topper told me, love is based on trust..if you cant trust someone…truly then its not going to work out. She lied to me over..and over..she dated some other guy for 2 months without even telling me….I deserve better than that…and she doesn’t deserve the love I’ve given her..she doesn’t deserve the devotion I’ve had and she doesn’t deserve to make me sad anymore. I am 110% sure she’ll come back, and she’ll realize she’s made the BIGGEST mistake of her life…and I’m not going to be there this time, I have been in the past..but I am not going to be the backup plan…the guy who takes her back over and over..that ISNT love. It took me 3 years to realize I’ve always loved her more than she loved me..I guess that just made me blind.

I went out with a girl I’ve known since high school yesterday..had a really good time (Actually supposed to go see Shinedown sometime), the month of March…maybe it will be good.

For my friends who helped me through this….I cant thankyou enough, I’d be drunk…half dead without you telling me thinks would work out…telling me how good a guy I am…that she doesn’t deserve me…it helped. I’m done with the nights I’m so sad I wont eat…the nights all I think about is her…this is my life…and I’m going to make it happy.

Gwen, if you read this…dont bother ever writing me again. I dont care how sorry you are, or how you’ll make it up to me, its not worth the lies, its not worth me giving you my heart for you to break, you can rip up that picture I made you 2 years ago, it means nothing anymore. Nothing you can say will make me forgive you for what you’ve put me through. I dont care about you. Not Anymore. And you made that choice, not me. I’m going to give you a piece of advice though; dont lie to someone else, dont make them think  you love them more than anything when you dont. Dont make them plan a future you NEVER plan on having with them. You say your a Christian? Might want to check the ten commandments and see how many of those you’ve broken, lying to me…cheating on me…lying to your parents. I’ll leave you with one thought though. You honestly were a better person 2 years ago than you EVER were now. Like I said. You’ll regret this to the day you die, to bad it wont mean anything to me.

For everyone else; this blog will be back to normal pretty soon with some cool new content…possibly a few surprise updates..not sure yet.

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So today my order from the JaGeX Store came, I ordered a Zammy Cup because I was like eh that looks pretty cool, and it was only like $5, so I bought it. So the package comes today in this really tall box, and I’m like….wtf is this? So I open it, take out the cup and wristband (free gift) and see a card (with my name on it), open it and read it:

So that answered my question as to why the box was so big, they sent me the $30 red dragon wall thing too, I put it up a few hours ago and it looks really cool, they did a really good job with it and thanks to them for the free gift . I guess good news comes in pairs? Because I heard from Gwen….even after I told her we shouldnt talk again because I’m always getting her in trouble with her parents…but I cant get her out of my head :/, so I’m not sure what’s going to happen…but eh, I’m happy for now ;P.

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Man just when you think your fine…your thoughts slip back to one of the worst parts of your life..the part that hurt the most..even if you know what you did was right you wish it could have been the choice you wanted…I need to stop thinking about this, but it’s so hard not to..and I’m sure none of you get what I’m talking about because you don’t know the story but I needed to get this out…I’ll always love her…

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Is there really a point of me writing blog posts? I mean my life is not interesting at all, I think that is the main part I stopped blogging before. Its only interesting when I go on a road trip or am working on a huge project like the RunePlanet signatures. Blah well tomorrow I have my final for one of my classes, and my next final is Saturday. Loadssss of fun right there. I’m really tired right now for some reason o.O listening to Rise Against (little rock face thing here). I wish I had a plugin that showed what I was listening to as I posted this…oh well. “I need to tell you I’ve been thinkin of you endlessly". Oh how those lyrics fit…(Jet Black Stare – Rearview Mirror). The 2 of you that read these posts, do you ever think about the future? Or if your future is perfect do you think of your past? Like when you were younger and had no clue who you’d be with…where you would end up, not knowing what was coming next? I always loved to have everything planned out….get married, have kids, have a good job, not make the mistakes my parents have made (dont get me wrong they are GREAT parents), and just one thing in your life…one person leaving can change your whole future you’ve had planned out…OKAY onto happier stuff because I’m sure the 1 of 2 readers reading this just got tired of me being a downer. Since Wyatt will be here next week I’m going to TRY to get back into Runescape…we’ll see what happens. The only reason I started again before was because of her >.> so I’ve kinda lost the love of the game….maybe it will come back I’m not sure. Anyway! Going to do something else now, peace.

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Alright so today I did a lot of stuff for RuneAddict, I went through all the files on the RuneAddict server, deleted some of the old code, then I went through the signatures and updated them all to allow case-sensitive usernames (since Runescape allows them now). Took my dog for a walk, came home, and now I’m working on a new java file uploader for Netcessor. Oh, and I upgraded my home servers OS, and deleted a bunch of old files. I think I did a lot of stuff today o.O. So now I’m sitting here on hold (talking to Melissa, she has the swine flu :s), and writing this post as I’m trying my best to keep up with this blog and not let it die like all my previous ones. Man…when things slow down I just start thinking about stuff…like Gwen and blah….well…Melissas back, peace guys.

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