TAG | Love
Thats right….a lot of people have said it….and I’m going to do it. For 3 years I have loved her unconditionally….I’ve put up with more than any boyfriend should have to….I’ve dealt with her parents…I’ve dealt with her liking other guys…all the while with me not even THINKING of being with anyone else…and I’m going to take some advice from a few friends today…like Topper told me, love is based on trust..if you cant trust someone…truly then its not going to work out. She lied to me over..and over..she dated some other guy for 2 months without even telling me….I deserve better than that…and she doesn’t deserve the love I’ve given her..she doesn’t deserve the devotion I’ve had and she doesn’t deserve to make me sad anymore. I am 110% sure she’ll come back, and she’ll realize she’s made the BIGGEST mistake of her life…and I’m not going to be there this time, I have been in the past..but I am not going to be the backup plan…the guy who takes her back over and over..that ISNT love. It took me 3 years to realize I’ve always loved her more than she loved me..I guess that just made me blind.
I went out with a girl I’ve known since high school yesterday..had a really good time (Actually supposed to go see Shinedown sometime), the month of March…maybe it will be good.
For my friends who helped me through this….I cant thankyou enough, I’d be drunk…half dead without you telling me thinks would work out…telling me how good a guy I am…that she doesn’t deserve me…it helped. I’m done with the nights I’m so sad I wont eat…the nights all I think about is her…this is my life…and I’m going to make it happy.
Gwen, if you read this…dont bother ever writing me again. I dont care how sorry you are, or how you’ll make it up to me, its not worth the lies, its not worth me giving you my heart for you to break, you can rip up that picture I made you 2 years ago, it means nothing anymore. Nothing you can say will make me forgive you for what you’ve put me through. I dont care about you. Not Anymore. And you made that choice, not me. I’m going to give you a piece of advice though; dont lie to someone else, dont make them think you love them more than anything when you dont. Dont make them plan a future you NEVER plan on having with them. You say your a Christian? Might want to check the ten commandments and see how many of those you’ve broken, lying to me…cheating on me…lying to your parents. I’ll leave you with one thought though. You honestly were a better person 2 years ago than you EVER were now. Like I said. You’ll regret this to the day you die, to bad it wont mean anything to me.
For everyone else; this blog will be back to normal pretty soon with some cool new content…possibly a few surprise updates..not sure yet.
Man just when you think your fine…your thoughts slip back to one of the worst parts of your life..the part that hurt the most..even if you know what you did was right you wish it could have been the choice you wanted…I need to stop thinking about this, but it’s so hard not to..and I’m sure none of you get what I’m talking about because you don’t know the story but I needed to get this out…I’ll always love her…
Ahh hey there everybody, I’m not sure how many of you grew up watching Disney movies or TV shows, well I was one of the lucky kids who watched Mulan, Winnie the Pooh, Pocahontas, Peter Pan, (gets ready for the gay ones) Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty. And I’m going to say I STILL enjoy watching Disney movies when I take my niece to the movies and stuff, hey Bedtime Stories was a GREAT movie, Adam Sandler + Disney = Epic. Well if you know one thing about Disney (and I guess most lovie dubbie movies there is usually a guy who falls for a girl and loses her. Well the reason I bring this is I was watching 17 Again (again, saw it in theaters with my niece and watched it again the other night) and it just reminded me how Disney gives everyone a false hope for the perfect relationship. Things aren’t always as simple as they are in the movies..and I guess until you experience the pain that comes with caring about someone you’ll think Disney is telling the truth about how everything is happy in the end…so Damn you Disney for making everyone believe the end is always happy. Maybe there is a happy ending…but how can that be when you’ve lost what you want? I guess its kinda like Call Me by Shinedown “I finally put it all together, nothing really lasts forever, I had to make a choice that was not mine, I had to say goodbye for the last time.” Ahhh done for today, a happier blog post tomorrow!
